Some thoughts from the darker days...

I see myself looking at the glass window with a layer of dust covering it,
Is it the way i perceive things or are the really the stains??

I see the acquaintances obtaining success the wrong way,
Is it that i don't have the capability to achieve that;
or is it i don't want to be satisfied from such gains??

I see myself sitting in a dark room waiting for a ray of light to come in;
Is it that i am too lazy too make an effort?
or is it because i don't have the strength to bring about a change??

I see myself standing under the grey blue sky,
And feel wet by drops of water;
Is it due to the tears rolling down my eyes
or is it really the rains??

I see myself surrounded by loved ones and friends,
but still am all silent in their company,
Is it my general nature to be so?
or is it really the inner pain??

I see my self to have lost to many a battles,
But still want to be part of some more,
Is it because i am used to such failures,
or is it that i want to be victorious because life is after all a game??